cross country.
Thursday, March 24, 2005
8:55 PM
well, had pe today. quite okays. no problems with san =D but terence HAD some problems with tan.
that dumb bell. heard what terence said bout mr quek. but well, ter was just kidding after all he didnt have to take it SO seriously. ter just said that maths teacher don't know how to count.
tan heard it, obviously. made all of us do pumping position. sorry, i mean all of us as in his group members.
okay. so went into pumping position. tan asked me what ter said. i said i forgot. he wasn't exactly satisfied with my answer though. but there wasnt anything he could do. so he asked the others. han bin said we were too busy doing push ups. who would've heard. this wasn't really the answer tan was looking for either. but all of us agreed with han bin though.
so in the end, he asked terence if he wanted to make his friends suffer, or "confess" to his mistakes.
so he confessed anyways. recovered. and got a sligh tiny-weeny lecture from tan.
its not like we care anyways.
so. went for recess someone spilt something on tan. most likely, on purpose =P gr8 work anyways.
had cross country.
4+ kilometers.
shacked.
really tiring.
came in 47th position.
though not really good, but well, i improved.
at least i DID. and
my class won the best class award!!
proud of 2.5 and definetly, happy to be part of 2.5
its such a gr8 class. i wouldn't want to choose another even if i could.
so well. yeah. completed the run with my gastrics coming along. darn.
slowed down thanks to my wonderful lil' stomach. of all times, my gastrics gotta come when i just started to run
had to walk most of the time.
slacked pretty much.
none of us expected 2.5 to win. we all thought it would be 2.7
all of us screamed when we heard 2.5 being called out. geez (=
went to mcdonald's with joyna, her darling nikki and ks to have our dinner.
came bacl after that. quite late though but, i don't care.
all i want is SLEEP!!

i'm just a kid; i should just stick with my toys and not meddle with boys

You're voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder

8:55 PM

over..
Saturday, March 19, 2005
11:00 PM
shit.
cried for 4 hours straight last night.he broke my record. first time i cried so much. for so long. congrats.
woke up this morning. first thing i did was to check my phone. like what i usually do every morning and i'd see his message. woke up at around 7.59 then i went to sleep again. i didnt want to wake up. i knew that. i would think of him the moment i was awake. i hold on to the monkey he gave me. so close to my heart. i love it. i love him. but. i've had enough. enough of these. and his spiteful words. i've decided to return him that monkey. on monday. i'll be broken. but its better to let go. rather than to hold on to the memories that are so. impossible..
its just within a short period of time. just a mere 4 days. and we've ended. not aexactly ended cos we never even started. but ended, as in i'll never be with him. i've placed him in my past. together with my ex. they're my past. my present and future, revolves around me and my friends.
it sounds. cruel. all that i've told him. but. its true.. no matter how he promises me to never break my heart again. to love me forever, will never be able to make up to the amount of tears i've shed for him, within one night. every morning, i'll try. to not wake up. cos. i dont wanna face another day, filled with misery and sadness. its enough.
i've given myself time. when school reopens, all that'll be on my mind is study. how to improve and do well for my midyear.
you love me but you don't know who i am` so just let me go. its time to just let go

You're voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder

11:00 PM

damn..
Friday, March 18, 2005
11:28 PM
arghh. i'm crying again, oh great. we broke down today. he cried. i cried. we both cried. i hate this day. it probrably spells the end of us too. i feel bad. he's carving himself. torturing himself. cutting his veins. on wednesday. i saw many cuts on his hand. my heart broke. now.. its happening again. we've fallen out. we were fine. until we talked about jeff. he said. if i accepted jeff he wouldn't be hurt. yea. he wouldn't be hurt. but i was hurt. deeply. and badly. couldnt cry. cos my mom and dad where both there. so i smiled. and laughed. like what i would do. reached tution. he called me. but i couldnt answer. so i went to da toilet. belvin said he cried. its strange. cos i cried too. in the toilet. all the aunties were like staring at me. so embarrassing. i dont know what to do. my eyes are swelling. from the excessive crying? probrably. i feel like a bum. all i can do is just to cry. i'm so useless. i hate myself. shouldnt have fallen for him. tried using the sharp objects i could find to hurt myself. physical pain beats emotional pain i guess. but it doesnt help.
so many peeps are talking to me on behalf. they're so concern. i dont know what to do. he apologised. he says i need you. i love you but. its really not as easy as he thinks to forget all that has happened. i hate myself and i love him. but i cant bring myself to forgive him. i'm sorry
i miss you too. but i guess its time we let go. it should be easier. since we didnt even started in the first place. but.. i guess i really did loved you. but.. lets face it. we're not meant to be

You're voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder

11:28 PM

terrible
12:51 AM
i'm feeling bad. i can't control my tears. everytime i talk to da zhu, i'll start crying. i dont know why. da zhu treats me really well. talking to adelyn. i bet she's feeling down too. firstly, you may want to know who da zhu is. a very nice guy. we're not together yet but. ya. he treats me so well. i feel bad. i'm not treating him well enough. we went out yesterday. with a whole group of friends. that guy. cheeky.. took the chance. said he was having gastrics. so i pulled him toward the entrance to get some food. then.. pull halfway he suddenly hold onto my hand. dont want let go. so.. thats how we held hands i guess. then we went for movie. watched boogie man. held onto his hand throughout the show. was afraid. you see. there was one part. nikki wanted to scare him. but hit the wrong person. so i freaked out. and he held onto me. lent me his shoulder and gave me a hug. really glad he was there. cos i cant imagine what would happen without him. he bought me a toy monkey too. a very cute one. i missed him badly. i dont know why. been crying. and he;s always the one to console me. i guess. da zhu, i miss you

You're voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder

12:51 AM

i'm sorry.
Monday, March 14, 2005
12:36 PM
i'm sorry. i didnt know that reading my blog will hurt you. i'm sorry. i didn't want this to happen. i'm really sorry.
I'VE GOTTEN OVER HIM. WE'RE HISTORY. ITS THE END OF US~
I'VE GOTTEN OVER HIM. WE'RE HISTORY. ITS THE END OF US~
I'VE GOTTEN OVER HIM. WE'RE HISTORY. ITS THE END OF US~
I'VE GOTTEN OVER HIM. WE'RE HISTORY. ITS THE END OF US~
I'VE GOTTEN OVER HIM. WE'RE HISTORY. ITS THE END OF US~
I'VE GOTTEN OVER HIM. WE'RE HISTORY. ITS THE END OF US~
I'VE GOTTEN OVER HIM. WE'RE HISTORY. ITS THE END OF US~
I'VE GOTTEN OVER HIM. WE'RE HISTORY. ITS THE END OF US~
I'VE GOTTEN OVER HIM. WE'RE HISTORY. ITS THE END OF US~
I'VE GOTTEN OVER HIM. WE'RE HISTORY. ITS THE END OF US~

I'VE GOTTEN OVER HIM. WE'RE HISTORY. ITS THE END OF US~

we're really history. we've ended. i was a fool to hold on to him and never let go. its time to let go. i guess. for both his and my sake.

You're voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder

12:36 PM

got back our ca1 results
Saturday, March 12, 2005
2:25 PM
hmms. yesterday we got back our ca1 results. i flunked 2 subjects; geography and maths. 25 FAILED their english. mind you its 25. gosh, slacked too much again. standard has all dropped =((. must study harder already. no time for play. well, on the other hand, wen xin got 100 for design and technology. full marks! together with loads of A1s. congrats =)) happy for her. loads were down and sad. some cried. well, all i can say is study harder i guess. hmms. he had 13 for his chinese. straight F9. like DUH! christian flunked his chinese too. this lil son of mine XD. hmms? but they scored pretty well for other subjects though, christian, he and myself flunked 2 subjects total. wee ning said loads of people sortta failed 2 subjects. thats bad.
english-56.3 C5
chinese- 70.9 A2
geography- 39.1 F9
mathematics- 38.5 F9
science- 57 C5
design and technology-78 A1
visual arts- 67.5 B3

yesterday was the last day of the term. loads of their handphones were confiscated. =(( yvonne's phone was too. the horrible teachers were forcing her to tell who were the others who brought their phones. she didn't say though. not the kind of betrayer. poor girl. feel sad for her too

` why are you giving me away with your bare hands. you'll never understand how hurt i was' -

You're voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder

2:25 PM

siians
Thursday, March 10, 2005
4:55 PM
hmms. didn't blog for quite some time. com's broken down. again. darn. hmms. blogging with my mom's com. XD very lag. slow slow one. hmms. so many things happened. i'm confused. anyways, i just created this blogskin. though its still under construction, the links are still workable, except for the credit links. hope you guys will like this new blogskin i've made.hmms, its pretty much like aaron's i guess. but its different though. well, my old blogskin. i guess i'll send it to blogskins.com. since i'm not using it anymore =D

love this song loads. really nice. so here are the lyrics
k e l l y` c l a r k s o n - b r e a k a w a y
Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I Would pray

Trying hard to reach out

But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray I could break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Want to feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on an airplane
Far away, and break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Buildings with a hundred floors

Swinging with revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But gotta keep movin' on, movin' on, fly away
Break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Break away
Break away

You're voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder

4:55 PM


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