over..
Saturday, March 19, 2005
11:00 PM
shit.
cried for 4 hours straight last night.he broke my record. first time i cried so much. for so long. congrats.
woke up this morning. first thing i did was to check my phone. like what i usually do every morning and i'd see his message. woke up at around 7.59 then i went to sleep again. i didnt want to wake up. i knew that. i would think of him the moment i was awake. i hold on to the monkey he gave me. so close to my heart. i love it. i love him. but. i've had enough. enough of these. and his spiteful words. i've decided to return him that monkey. on monday. i'll be broken. but its better to let go. rather than to hold on to the memories that are so. impossible..
its just within a short period of time. just a mere 4 days. and we've ended. not aexactly ended cos we never even started. but ended, as in i'll never be with him. i've placed him in my past. together with my ex. they're my past. my present and future, revolves around me and my friends.
it sounds. cruel. all that i've told him. but. its true.. no matter how he promises me to never break my heart again. to love me forever, will never be able to make up to the amount of tears i've shed for him, within one night. every morning, i'll try. to not wake up. cos. i dont wanna face another day, filled with misery and sadness. its enough.
i've given myself time. when school reopens, all that'll be on my mind is study. how to improve and do well for my midyear.
you love me but you don't know who i am` so just let me go. its time to just let go
You're voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
11:00 PM