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Thursday, June 30, 2005

4:38 PM

DDDEERRRIIICCCKKKK!!!

okay, he's M3 from project superstar*

kinda cute (=

looks are okay, but i mean. his personality's cute.

well, anyway, just back from school.

and i guess, i won't be online as often as the past.

neither will i blog that much.

i'm banned from using the computer from monday, to thursday.

and on weekends, i've got this one hour per day time limit thingy.

kinda pathetic, well it IS pathetic.

whatever.

today, arrived school pretty early.

had a literature test. and school ended at 3.05pm

we've fixed our sitting positions already.

no more free sitting.

and quek was ACTUALLY kinda nice.

suprisingly, he asked if we were comfortable with our current arrangements.

as in, before we fixed our positions.

so, we were sitting with the person we chose to sit with.

and, we were pretty cool with it.

except umar, who seemed unpleased.

so, he was shifted to the back.

and wee ching, to the front.

i'm still sitting with joyna (=

at the second row. though we're in front, its real good actually.

we get alot of attention from teachers. not the wrong kind.

the positive way.

they kept asking if we understood.

and we did. ironically, we found maths fun x))

i don't know why. but, i'm coping with simultaneous equation pretty well.

not bad. improvement.

stay back with joyna, wee ning and michelle today.

only a short while.

and i didn't really spend that much time playing.

one quarter of the time were spent in looking at the NPCC perform.

in a sense, dance?

our eyes were glued to aniq.

and he started to laugh when he saw us (=

but, just tried to control his laughter lahs.

how could he just burst out laughing when ms salina was there?

yeah, so i helped ks with his literature, and redzuan and weiji tried teaching me how to reply to a complaint letter.

not exactly teach. they just guided me along.

so, well. aniq's our new class monitor.

and sheree, our new class monitress (=

joyna and me are really getting more comical day by day. not only comical.

but childish as well.

whats up with us?!!

ooohhh, she's so ugly (=

You're voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
4:38 PM

Monday, June 27, 2005

4:04 PM

first day's school is just over.

if you were to ask, no. it ain't fun, nor pleasant at all.

and charis, i did NOT enjoy school.

i'd rather spend my time sleeping >.<>

so comfortable.

okay, whatever. get back to the topic.

i ended up going back to school with my fringe clipped up.

not because mommy wanted me to.

but because, serene JIE JIE (she's my hairdresser and i really am kind enough to call you JIE JIE instead of aunty cause i noticed you aren't old. not at all) cut my fringe too short.

it JUST touched my eyebrows.

i mean, it ain't really that short.

but it is short enough.

so i decided to clip em up (=

see, what a good girl i am.

so, i was supposed to go to school, then copy homework from aaron.

i had it all planned until it screwed up.

i saw michelle on the way.

so we started chatting. till i forgot the time -.-

arghh. nvm. i still handed in my incomplete homework still.

and really. i don't know whats gotten into me.

no, wait a minute. not only me. but its US.

joyna and me.

we were so "cartoon-ish" today.

everything we did seemed so comical.

and we'd laugh at the slightest things. funny.

anyways, my gastric came during recess.

dammit. again.

i continued moaning in pain.

all the way til school ended.

stayed back till 3pm.

then left when my gastric's got worse.

and now i'm eating chips (=

though i know that eating a proper meal wouldn't gain me as much fats as eating chips would.

but, nevermind that. chips taste wayy better than a meal.

am i right or am i right?

and that bimboitic ms tan MS.

no wait. she got the brains, but she's got no looks. so, she's a bimbo with no looks.

so, this means. she doesn't even qualify to be a bimbo.

so, whatever. that slut. it shall be.

instead of appreciating my effort i took, to complete my english composition last night, she reprimanded me for not typing them out.

but hey, i thought i lost my papers. my homework rather.

until, i remembered last night whie i was about to sleep where i placed them.

and i rushed my composition out okay? i only completed it 4am in the morning.

she really should be appreciative i took the initiative to even do it.

what an ass.

humphs! >.<

today's the 27th june.

and it is sweetheart's WEENING's birthday!!!!

dearest girl, thanks for always being there for me kays.

i know there were some unhappy matters that once happened between us.

but, put the past behind us. and look aheand.

we'll always be best of friends yeah?

i love you girl.

may all your wishes come true and God bless.

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY!

Thursday, June 23, 2005

2:52 PM

okay, i'm back. from my class's chalet.

first day - tuesday`21.o6.o5

aaron, june quan, umar, shing jiuan, clarissa, wee ning and many many more had gathered at my house.

aaron and june quan were the first to arrive.

and i was still in my pyjamas.

in fact, i haven't even woke up. till they came.

anyways, many others started streaming in while i went to change.

we left for the chalet at about 3pm.

met lavina, wen xin and some others there.

we checked in and started unpacking.

no wait, the girls started to unpack while the boys watched tv.

they were totally glued to the telly. arggh.

then they got a scolding from me >.<

and they became more co-operative (=

kinda great they were.

then we left for food.

split up, arthur and daniel came with shing jiuan, clarissa, wee ning and me.

the rest went to burger king. and we headed for kfc.

after we had our first meal in the day, we went ot the arcade for some games.

orginally, our plan was to go to the arcade to play for a while. while waiting for the others to arrive.

then we ended up playing in the arcade for the other half of the day, while we were suppossed to go to pasir ris park.

yea, then shing jiuan, clarissa, wee ning and me decided to get ice cream. from mcdonalds.

while we were walking back, two girls came to approach me.

they handed me a phone and said this guy wanted my number.

and i did give lahs. i mean, they kept smiling and they were going give lehs. can? can?

so okay lah, not nice to reject.

they said they were asking on behalf of their colleague, a guy. like duh?

anyways, headed back to the arcade.

the girls left later on at night. after we played basketball.

and yes. we were playing basketball after the lights out.

then the police came.

came to check our ez-link etc.

took down our address, name and ic number >.<

so we headed back to the arcade.

and we returned to the chalet later.

wee ning and me got chased by a cat.
she was scared when she saw the cat and she started to run.
who'd have expected it. the cat ran as well. so we both ended up running back to the chalet.
screaming. joyna, now i know how you felt >.<

then ks called. said he was left alone.

so, he came over to meet me.

so i went off with him, while the boys went back to the chalet. and the 3 remaining girls went home.

then we roamed around downtown.

went back to the chalet to charge my phone. only to find out that the guys ransacked my bag while i was out.

they were supposed to look for my comb. cause i agreed to lend aaron my comb.

and they found many other things. you know what they are. no need for further elaboration.

whatever.

then went to pasir ris park with ks.

saw uncle joe (=

got 5 cats there.

hook, socks, brownie, mushy (mushy. yes, yes) and jer-meeoooww.

jer-mmmeeeoow was the cutest though.

climbed on my lap.

cats are cute.

for once, i think so.

so anyway, we spet the whole night on the beach.

quite fun, but got bitten by many mosquitoes.

had bad gastrics in the early morning also. about 5.

so we headed back to mcdonalds to grab a bite.

but still couldn't eat much. eating made it much worse.

so we went off again after a while.

went to pasir ris park again. we were waiting for the sunrise.

but we still didn't manage to see it.

it seemed like it was about to rain.

but ya, we decided to return back to catch some sleep.

we were damn tired.

reached the chalet at 7.45am like that.

i only found out the guys had locked the doors when i reached the chalet.

i was locked outside >.<

pressed the doorbell so many times.

they still coninued to sleep through though.

so i decided to use my last resort.

climbed over the wooden "railings" dont know what its called.

managed to get in though the kitchen door there.

went to bathe. then after the boys in umar's room woke up. i went to sleep.

second day - wednesday`22.o6.o5

woke up at about 12.30pm.

3 calls came in.

first it was wee ning.

after we finished talking, and i just placed my phone on the bed, wen xin called.

then ks called.

finally went i was about to sleep, suhailah saw me rubbing my eyes. LOL

then she came in and fine, i decided to wake up.

then the girls and guys started to come.

went to eat first.

then we went to theme park.

we wanted to play rainbow at first.

but, clarissa didnt pass the height limit.

so we decided to give it a miss.

we went totake the viking then.

just screamed through out. for the fun of it.

then we went to queue for panasonic, alpha 8.

when we finally arrived to the room, where the ride was.

i started screaming like no one's business.

it was so dark.

so creepy.

looking at the trails of where the roller coster would go, i started to freak out.

then i decided that, no. i really wasn't prepared for this.

shing jiuan, clarissa, wee ning and me backed out.

just before our turn.

we ran out form the entrance and everyone there were staring at us.

i heard one ask - why they come out from here?

but, yes. cause its so scary inside.

then we went to get a drink.

jeremy came with us too. he didnt want to play alone. he said it'd be no fun.

he was left out, you see.

anyways. the others then wanted to play cadbury inverter while we were drinking.

so they played. and we went for viking again after our drinks.

then we decided we should try rainbow.

clarissa didn't play. aaron didn't either (=

boy, the ride was.. BORING!

so boring. so dearest clarissa, don't worry. you didn't miss out on anything.

finally, we decided it was time to get wet.

we played wet and wild.

we decided we HAD to strike a pose for the camera.

everyone playing who was with our group pointed middle finger, with our tongues stucked out for hte first time.

then after playing, we re-queued again.

and the second time, we made this pose; the hand signs for 2 and 5.

put em together, you get 2.5 (=

so loved that.

went to take the rides many many times.

drenched from top to toe.

then the guys were asking both qian and me to hide. and quickly dry ourselves.

since jeremy sat together with us for the rides.

and our shirts were close to see-through.

mine wasn't. lol.

shing jiuan and me wore the same shirt! coincidence.

further more, we wore our shirts matched with shorts.

we went to the haunted house as well.

so, we queued for it.

supposed to go in one by one.

but, we later decided we should go in as a group.

so we requested for it.

and the lady was pretty cool with it also.

since the guys said we really SHOULD try em out.

jeremy dared us.

if we went in and complete the whole thing without screaming, he'd give us 5 bucks each.

jeremy went in also, only guy.

we were discussing who'd lead the way.

since jeremy wasnt going to do so.

none of them wanted to walk first.

so, i agreed to since no one was willing to do so.

but, i chickened out the moment i went in.

seriously, i did.

it was dim and skulls on the wall adn stuffs. creepy.

then qian screamed when she saw the wax-figurine behind the door. it wasn't moving.

but its eyes were glowing red.

then i was laughing at her.

saying, qian, you screamed. so fast. ahahah. you..

then from behind me (cause my back was facing the front as i was talking to qian) RRROOARRS. not exactly roar.

but, there was this guy, masked. dressed as a devil. crept up behind me.

and i was in front. first some more.

then i screamed and the girls squated down.

then i was pulled down cause shing jiuan's hand was hooked with mine.

but i just jerked a lil.

then stood up. and said to that "devil" who was walking towards the girls. and they were all screaming.

i said, stop it. they're freaked out. don't scare them further.

then he walked towards me.

and i saw his eyes.

very red. can see the red red veins inside.

so disguisting.

and i started to back off as it walked towards me.

then later only jeremy was left in front.

i have to admit. i was pretty freaked out as well. i mean, his eyes.

so shing jiuan and the others said they wanted to leave.

then they started to pull the door and run off.

like, we were there all along. we didnt move at all.

all the while we were next to the door, the entrance.

the "devil" was supposed to wait for us to watch the tv. so he could scare us.

but, no. we didnt watch we were quarelling all the way. debating who should go first.

so i guess, it decided that we're gonna get to no where like this. and it came out >.<

after leaving the haunted house, we headed for wet and wild again.

last ride.

weren't supposed to ride anymore.

but we pleaded with the guy in charge. and he relented in the end.

he is sooo nice.

really. we kept saying thanks and bye then goodnights to him before we left.

after wet and wild. we rushed for the viking's last ride as well. we were the really few chinese there.

the rest were all indians.

LOL. then we had this screaming competition. our side won though (=

then we went back to the chalet.

anyway, we went to the arcade after shing jiuan, clarissa and qian left.

then while cahtting outside te chalet, we remembered the key was still inside.

then wee ning rushed to the door but it was already locked.

i tried climbing over, but the door was locked as well.

wei xing tried to enter by the back door. unfortunately, the back door was also locked.

thank god the security gueard just passed by.

so we had his help. he finally opened it.

and wee ning, kept calling him handsome.

to please him. he was about 30+ lahs.

not handsome x))

then we waited for the car racing.

but, it was full.

then i was about to go play some other games, leaving the car racing side.

when a guy, playing the racing game.

shouted, my friend wants your number.

then he started laughing.

thought he was talking to jewel, who was in front of me.

so i ignored him.

wee ning heard him too. she thought he said it to me. then we ended our discussion with a dunno lah.

so we went to play time crisis. played with jeremy.

that guy was behind me while i was playing. LOL

then we went back to the car racing side.

then i was sitting on the bishi bashi machine, while two guys came up to me.

then he said his friend wanted my number. and asked if i could give.

he asked in this really really really polite manner.

so i decided to give. since he was so nice.

later i found out it was he, himself who wanted.

but, whatever. its okay.

then we went to play bowling. didnt bowl really well.

ks and lian jie were there also. so i bowled in both lanes.

keep getting criticisms from lian jie >.<

called me long kang girl. then i called him long kang boy.

later, we returned to the chalet.

then that guy called to ask if i could go out to meet them.

i promised i'd call them back. but, i didn't i fell asleep in the end.

was too tired.

it was already 5+ in the morning.

third day - thursday (today)` 23.o6.o5

woke up at 10.40am like that.

aaron woke me up.

brushed teeth, then pack up and check out.

aaron, jing ming, wei xing and wee ching came over to my house.

drank loads of jolly shandy in the past few days. funny.

only 0.5 percent of alcohol. so little.

then, they left after staying for a couple of hours.

and only have i learnt to know that.

1. wee ching tried waking me up, by fanning the blanket in front of me. but, to no avail. he didn't suceed.

2. many people tried waking me up today. but they failed (=

3. i woke up thrice. but went to sleep again.

4. i only woke up when aaron tried to do so.

somehow, he reminded me of my mom.

he said, 10 more minutes we gotta check out.

and she always say.

your gonna be late for school if you don't wake up.

then i'd wake up.

gosh, i didn't realise how long my post was. till i looked back. i think i really MUST stop now.

this post's very long.

wahahhahhas XD

Monday, June 20, 2005

10:44 PM

TOMORROW"S OUR CHALET (=

good, can meet like, more than half of the class tmr.

sadly, joyna's not going.

she's going to genting again >.<

second time in the holidays.

anyways, received so0o0o many calls today.

calling to ask bout the chalet.

sad to say, none to talk to me.

no lah, i'm just kidding.

there were calls coming in to talk to me (=

thats why my battery's flat.

and stupid adam refuses to lend me his phone cause he has no free outgoing calls.

i know, he must've talked on the phone too much with eve.

that silly, stupid, childish boy.

okay, no. he ain't childish and he isn't that bad either.

he WAS nice enough to give me 2 packets of tissues -.-"

don't read too much into it. i need tissues cause i'm down with flu.

very bad one. down with cough as well.

arghh. of all the days.

used up 4 packets of tissues.

1 of my own, 1 from xuan-yoo, 2 from adam (=

adam was kinda sweet today.

i mean, he helped me throw litter, wanted to lend me his phone to sms (but his bus came so i didn't get to) and gave me tissues.

tomorrow's the chalet. and i have not packed my bags.

nothing at all.

i've been glued to the computer screen since i'm home.

oh ya, today we took our class photo.

class photo as in tution's class photo.

kinda cool. aunty doris asked xuan and me to take a pic with her also.

she's very nice. trust me.

though she seemed fierce to me at first.

best of all, she scolded choky (=

anyway, whatever it is.

i swear tomorrow's gonna be great.

2:34 AM

okay, its a long time since i last blogged.

or rather, at least to me.

anyways, been pretty busy. yeah. its a good sign actually (=

my cousin's been staying over at my house since like, last week.

so, on friday we went bowling. with my mom, dad, bro and cous.

bowled two days in a row.

yesterday, some of the 2.5-vers.

about 12 of us gathered at loyang point to buy the food for the barbeque.

yeah, spent about 50+

very little. not much actually.

we were scrimping and saving here and there.

and we ended buying prawns which were not fresh.

and we only knew it after the guys brought it to my house and my mom told us so.

whatever.

anyways, i was supposed to meet em at 1pm.

but i guess i was late, cause i only woke up at 12.58pm.

-shrugs- no biggy. i woke up pretty early that day as a matter of fact.

so yea, i was late. but, umar and heman were later.

after we got the food we headed back home.

no wait, MY home.

wanted to marinate the food.

but, we ended up leaving the marinating to my mom.

so she helped us with everything in the end.

and we ended up settling ourselves comfortably on the couch in front of the telly.

we watched white chicks anyways.

they were pretty reluctant to. but, after i played it, they were glued to the tv.

they didnt even want to leave when we were about to.

after we left my house, along with my bro and cous.

we left for tampines.

then we went to the pavillion and played cs.

really, qian was having a hard time dying.

i mean, not THAT dying but, dying as in, in the game.

then we stopped playing and went back to timepark to play basketball.

saw shing jiuan's friends there.

they were playing soccer. and they occupied the whole court >.<

then we started negotiating.

then they asked us to play and ignore the. and they gave us their assurance that the ball would not hit us.

yea, but ks, lian jie and guo sheng arrived later and they started playing match.

grr, they got june quan and daniel to play along with them.

then june quan, aaron and arthur left first.

leaving with daniel, shing jiuan, clarissa, qian hui, me and the two un-sophisticated brats.

then daniel also said he wanted to leave.

he wasn't really satisfied actually.

the we went to play at 230

near the school.

had loads of fun.

and qian hui managed to get the ball into the hoop (=

congrats sweetie. told ya you could make it.

qian's bro joined us as well.

saw alex and his friends under the voideck.

no, he spotted me. then he asked me if i was playing basketball.

so, only then did i find out that guy was him.

we left at 10 anyways, where the lights were all turned off.

today, supposed to cut hair.

but, went to imm and ikea to search for my mirror.

i wanted a full-length mirror, plain and classy kind. for my room. so i could, you know. double-check before i leave.

be it for tution or whatsoever.

call me vain.

so what? i AM vain.

nothing to be ashamed of, really.

so, only at ikea did my mom inform me the salon closed at 7.30pm.

i totally blew anyways.

nevermind that.

before i go.

this is for all PRCS\2.5-vers`o5.

2.5-VERS PLEASE TAKE NOTE.

SOME OF US WILL BE MEETING IN MY HOUSE AT 2PM, ON TUESDAY.

WE'LL BE CHECKING INTO THE CHALET FIRST.

SO, IF ANY OF YOU'D LIKE TO COME OVER FIRST.

DO INFORM ME ALRIGHTS.

FOR THE REST OF YOU GUYS, MEET IN THE CHALET'S ROOM AT 3.30PM.

ANYWAY, EARLIEST CHECK IN TIME WOULD BE 3PM.

SO, CYA GUYS THERE (=

Thursday, June 16, 2005

11:57 PM

no joyna.

you're getting it all so wrong.

really you are.

you've changed. i'm sure i've told you before.

you changed into a different person.

you're getting bolder. so, absurd.

you know how hurt i am to see you like this?!

you wont know. i swear you wont.

but really. it pains me to see you turning from bad to worse.

don't tell me bout your results girl.

i'm talking bout your behaviour, your character, your personality, your lies.

i know your mom knows. but, still. we covered up so much for you.

i already tolerated with your nonsense earlier on. really i have.

but, how could you?!

trade our class chalet for a stayover at ks's chalet?!

don't say sorry.

its not gonna help.

cause i'm really very angry with you now.

not to mention, how sad i am.

i lost this very very good, or you could say best friend of mine.

i don't know who you are now.

you've changed. joyna, you break my heart. really, you have.

we did try talking to you.

if you remember that time we sat in the classroom.

wee ning, hui ping and me.

we tried talking to you.

sadly, you stubbornly argued back.
if you remember. you'd never do so in the past..

this was what i learnt from gerald, KOR KOR.

i'm telling you this now girl. read it carefully.

if you think we're wrong then fine.

but if you think we're trying to do you wrong think again.

after all the time we took to change you.

you want it to go down like this, there's nothing we could do.

i don't know how you'd react to this.

you may hate me. i don't know.

but, really. these are what i want or rather need to tell you.

i hope to get the old girl back.

my daughter, very sweet daughter.

the 3 of us, are always here for you.

you can turn to us anytime.

but, we'd all wish for you to change back, as much as we wish you back with us..

6:52 PM

so.. i'm back from our KRTC`lolli grp gathering x))

and alex chua, i swear you are insane.

not that i know you, as in know you or anything.

but, yes. you lil' stranger, you're insane. really (=

wahhaas.

supposed to meet the other 4 at pasir ris mrt, at 11 am.

and i only woke up at 10.45 am when my mom calld me to remind me bout it.

she went "hello? are you still in bed? aren't you supposed to meet your friends at 11?"

only then, did it snap me. OH! yeah. 11am. i remember now >.<

so yup. met them at 12 at pasir ris bowl in downtown east.

arrived with adrian's, very late belated birthday gift.

it was a polo tee shirt. shared cost with xuan and alex.

okay. this reminds me. xuan and alex, 5 dollars each (=

okay, so we went to the counter to change the shoe and alex refused to go off with the old design of shoes the guy gave him.

then xuan and me requested for the newer design ones also.

he was hillarious.

he told us this. you want new one. she want new one. he also want new one. then you call me uncle?!

so xuan called him KORKOR then he smiled and gave us the newer ones.

we started bowling then.

many hai sing students were there. many.

alex was very good at it. his score was 111 for the first game we played.

adrian was pretty good as well. he scored 68 or something.

the first two times i bowled during the first game, i got a zero. really.

the ball just went into the drain. like almost immediately.

so at the third time i bowled of the first game, i changed my score with yyz.

as in, i took his turn and i forced him to take mine.

he was like, huh? so unfair..

so ya, our ranings for the first game was.

alex, adrian, me (=, xuan then yyz.

my score was only 48 though.

they were all sortta looking down on me or what.

the boys keep saying. sure go into "longkang" again lah.

i proved them wrong though. a spare.

next, we went to white sands.

played counter-strike.

alex was also good at this. (alex, why do you seem so good in everything?)

met mervyn yau.

saw him play para para. eh, mervyn, don't action. overreacting.

then we went to tampines mall.

we were practically dragging them into the neoprint shop.

actually, no. we were dragging alex into the shop.

then he started complaining of stomaches and stuffs.

xuan actually believed him. then i told her to ignore him.

so he was left there for quite some time.

then he finally stood up and say. eh, why can't bluff anyone?

alex, alex. try harder next time (=

so we took neoprints. the 21-shot machine.

very very very fun.

the pics are with xuan now. she's gonna scan em in. since my printer isn't fixed up. yet.

saw yizhen, lihui and michelle in the neoprint shop as well.

bet they had fun too. can hear them laughing from outside the machine.

anyways, we proceeded on to simei.

went to eastpoint cause i wanted to play the machine, you know? the one where you can catch toys.

i wanted to catch the owl.

the one my brother yearned for.

topped up 10 dollars into the card.

tried a couple of times at the first machine. but, still couldn't catch it.

so yyz told me to try the otehr machine.

the first time i tried, i caught it.

like, wow. finally.

we actually screamed and banged when there was once at the first machine, i already caught it. but it dropped just before it went into the hole where you can take the toy.

then there was another time when, alex tried to play.

then i told him to go forward. but he kept going slowly. like, stop and go stop and go.

so we were arguing and he didnt know that it had time limits.

then while we were arguing the catcher just went down and grabbed like, practically nothing.

then we started laughing. ridiculous.

then we played time crisis3.

alex and me were sharing a game like, after 2 lives are lost the other person gets to play.

and he's always dying very quickly.

finally, i THINK i'm better at this than him.

after the games we realised we haven't eaten. and it was already 5.

what i meant by haven't eaten is, no breakfast, no lunch nothing.

so we went to the food court to eat.

then there was this really weird lady who kept staring at us.

maybe she's got this huge lesbian crush on xuan or what? LOL.

nah, i'm just kidding.

but, we were pretty annoyed.

just when we were leaving, i saw michael. michael, varian, and zakee.

i seem to bump into him really often.

anyways, it was already 6 by then.

so, took mrt back. xuan adrian and yyz got off at tampines.

leaving me and alex.

then we started to debate who was insane. him or me.

then we started going i don't know you. i really don't.

then he keep saying "siao cha bor". maybe he didn't realise. but many were looking at him like he's mad.

really, i think he is mad too.

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

10:45 PM

okay, umm.

his birthday today. happy birthday once again.

cousin's came over today.

kinda cool. went to tampines mall.

and michael said he saw me >.<

and he didnt come up to me.

anyways, i went to pavillion to play counter strike.

played with aaron, arthur, yao zhong and zhong jie.

with my bro that is.

so, my cousins then came over and i let my other younger cousin, alvin play. while my cousin, rina and me chit-chatted. girl's talk.

uh, ya. then when we were about to leave i found that my bag was missing.

so i called my mom. like duh, natural reaction.

she came over anyways. she told my dad i was definetly gonna cry.

she said i'd cry cause i'm gonnapanick bout my wallet.

and yes, i did cry. but not because of my wallet.

but because i lost my ipod as well. my wallet was with me. so i didnt lose it.

my phone was also wiht me. i can't go anywhere without it.

so well, i loast my ipod.

the police were also called down. 5 of them.

they couldn't find it though.

i was about to leave also.

when i saw this guy taking my bag wanting to hand it over to the counter.

told my mom and headed back to it. i practically snatched it from him x))

too happy. i totally love that bag.

its white, small, handy, cute, mango bag.

it was my mom's then i took it and she gave me lahs.

but ya. anyway. my ipod's gone.

and i so hate whoever it was that took my bag.

really. i so-totally hate you.

argghhhhh

MY IIIIPPPPPOOODD!!!

my stomach practically felt like it was gonna fall off my butt.

but mom's agreed to buy me another one anyways.

she said i could get the U2 special edition or the ipod photo.

but still i miss the white classic one.

so i'm getting the ipod photo. most likely.

so sad, really.

*snaps* SHUT UP!

2:05 AM

ahahhaa, okay. i know yvonne and me have already agreed to ignore birthdays.

but, how could i ever forget HIS, when he's already asked for swimming trunks as his birthday present >.<

so whatever, since i'm broke.

don't say i'm not good to you.

happy brithday, kun sheng. you're 14 now.

you really ought to mature, find yourself a life-time partner.

okay, maybe not now. its jsut infatuation.

at this age, this age of ours.

yea, so happy brithday. hope you'll have fun at your chalet then.

12:37 AM

had tution today (=

loads of fun.

saw wendy today!!

my sweetest sister x))

she's really nice, very cute.

especially when she eats ice-cream. LOL

one day, we'll go out and i'll treat you to ice cream next time kays (=

ahah. went with ks, nikki, ALEX!!, alan, alpha, shannon, guo xin, wendy, xiaoxuan and me.

lol. then terence came along, with his mei i guess. not sure.

wendy and i thought she was his stead XD

turned out we were wrong.

yeah, ks actually wanted to find evan, a.k.a kky.

uh, yup. then he couldn't find him x)

but during maths class, kkay said he wasn't afraid of ks and ks was afraid of him and stuffs.

then when ks asked him he said he was just kidding.

what the hell?

whatever. i don't get a thing, anyways.

so TUTION!

wahahhas. we actually got loads of foodfor ourself.

xiaoxuan, dyane and me.

we were gorging ourselfs practically.

i've gotta pics of our food. maybe i'll post them later.

if i can. and i have the time, but i'll try. LOL

stupid chok.

he was commenting on my pants, being too low?

but like, hello? its only at my hip. i think its high actually.

and he asked; how does your dad respond to your choice of clothings?

and i just went, like sorry?

and he actually said. wont your pants drop off?

what can i say? demonstration's the best right?

i mean, action speaks louder than words.

so i jsut tugged on my pants and said. there, its doesnt.

it was darn funny. then i found out that xuan and dyane were both pulling my pants. then they were laughing and pulling. like they had so much fun?

from pulling my pants? i dont know.

anyways, his respond was, can't you try harder >.<

whatever.

he was poking at me throughout maths today.

no fair, really.

then he talked bout stuffs during shower or whatever.

fine. blah blah. go on, crap. thats all.

anyways, i've patch up with my mom.

i dont know how.

but the moment i got into the car just now after tution.

she started asking if i've eaten and wanted to get more food for me.

she's REAALLLYY nice now.

and its getting kinda creepy.

cause, i know she's never nice. at least, not to me?

but, fine. since its settled, then so be it.

"i don't hate you cause you're fat.

you're fat anyway.

i hate you cause i hate you"

quoting a girl, in mean girl. i'm so totally watching it.

i've watched it 3 times in a row.

ironic. i love that show.

uh, she's s0o0o0o mean.

oh, shut-up/shut up/shaddup.

Monday, June 13, 2005

12:02 PM

okay. haven't been online for the past few days.

computer wasn't fixed up.

my new furniture's just arrived, for my room.

so, i went to johor yesterday.

first time i'm shopping there without my mom, first time i'm shopping there without looking at any clothes.

i know, i swore. that i'd never apologise.

but i did.

dad and bro were pressurising me to.

anyway i did.

the first time i said it, she ignored me.

then she told my brother i was too soft.

so fine, i said sorry again.

then once again. she said i was too soft. she couldn't hear.

so i got kinda pissed.

and i said sorry very loudly.

the people around us could hear.

good right? she's satisfied.

then she said that i sound rude, don't look sincere.

she was really getting on my nerves.

i asked he waht she wanted, when i already said sorry.

se actually said- go down on your knees lah.

i kinda raised my voice telling her that she's too much.

my brother tried negotiating with her. and she gave in a little- get her to pull her ear then.

using a veyr harsh tone, i told her this was public. pull my ears, at my age? no way.

then walked off.

this is ridiculous.

1. good guys are close to extinction.

2. mothers are gettig absurd.

geez, somebody really must change the world >.<

happiness; is something i can never find.

not at home, i know.

its way impossible for me to find any happiness in the family..

i really can't blog much anyways. its already 12.13pm.

i'm supposed to wake up earlier. but i woke up at 12.

and i've gotta get ready for tution later.

gonna see xuan and dyane (=

my two wonderful darlings x))

"go for tution, i will.

leave now, i must."

quoting master yoda from starwars XD

he's darn cute. he likes to talk upside down manner thingy.

um, sorry. guys. all these starars craze's taken over my brain.

and i'm gonna make it worse by studying from 2 to 9.30.

i'm studious alright (=

Friday, June 10, 2005

10:35 PM

okay, before you guys come pointing fingers at me, which i know you WON'T. cause, you guys love me as much as i love you. right?

sheesh, sorry. bhb x))

dad did talk to me about letting mom gain trust, so she'd let me out and stuffs.

but hello?

don't we all know the outcome like duh!

heasn't he been trying to gain trust?

he has,let me tell you that.

but has he managed to? over the years, he hasnt either.

thats why, i dont bother trying.

it'll be the same.

maybe you'd suggest to talk to her.

BUT. whenever i try telling her anything.

she'd turn the tables around and start pin-pointing me.

how am i even suppose to tell her our thoughts?

then, she says i keep things from her.

she says i don't tell her what's happening in school.

like, how can i tell you/her things?

there's this major age-gap thingy. thought she isn't that old.

but, she wont understand us/me.

take ankle socks for example.

and, i did not exactly wear ankle socks okay?

its ONLY socks.

at least, teachers didnt complain to her bout my behaviour or what.

have i not been trying to get out of trouble?

have i not been trying to hand in homework?

you tell me. no wait, i tell you.

i have alright. as a matter of fact. i DID pass up my homework.

i DID try getting out of trouble.

but, what do i get? nothing.

she believes whatever the teachers say.

for heaven's sakE!

nono. let me change that.

for HELL'S sake!

~~i'm your daughter~~, in the past.

correction. i WAS your daughter.

can't you just listen? you didnt even bother listening to me!

i know PTM's over. qutie some time ago actually.

but, i really. can't help but flare at the thought of it.

do you even know quek THAT well.

first time you see him, you trust him so much.

what the hell's wrong with you?!

i've had enough of you and your nonsense.

i KNOW you're waiting for me to say sorry.

but, i'm not gonna say it.

try forcing it out of my mouth, if you're that desperate to hear.

cause, mom,

you suck, big time.

i hate you

you hate me

we are hateful family

with a great big knife and mommy on the floor

won't you say you hate me too?

lame, i know.

evil. its okay.

cause its so true.

~~mommy, i love you~~

cross that out.

mommy i HATE you

asshole; you're busted

9:55 PM

yvonne dearest, i'm broke too.

not to worry. you've got company (=

anyways, today!

damn. got woke up by some freaking mad "dog".

if you get what i mean. that stupid woman LAH.

just because i forgot to off the tv >.<

she screamed her lungs out.

asking who gave me permission to on the television.

stupid. 7 in the morning kays.

so early. so i just stumbled off the bed. went to my dad's room to sleep.

umm, i returned to my room later though.

so yes. woke up at 2pm.

funny. i thought i'd wake up at 1pm.

anyways, went to the arcade again.

caught another elephant (=

tried to get the owl and doggIE my bro wanted.

but couldn't )=

i swear i MUST get my hands on either of them one of these days.

i MUST get it for my wonderful brother.

see, i'm a good sister okays?

ya. played time crisis 3. love it, totally.

okay. wasn't in a good mood today.

in the morning to be exact.

another case of improper approach.

whatever it is called.

this stupid old lecherous looking, treacherous TOAD.

i was walking past him. he was sitting down.

we went in single-file, cause it was crampy.

so when i walked pass him, he said "hi".

i heard him say it. i swear i did.

but, i merely continued walking straight. ignored him.

he was kinda shocked.

saw in the reflection of the glass, he turned around.

but, whatever it is.

i'm not interested to know.

guys these days, tactless, rude, crude, stingy, scrimpy, shy. except for a few exceptions that is.

what is the world coming to?!

guys. good guys to be exact. are close to extinction. no kidding.

daddy wants me to apologise.

but hell NO. i'm not.

i'm not going to apologise for something i've not done. not anymore.

i WAS naive, then.

i'm not, now.

as a matter of fact, i think she owes me an apology.

which is definetly, so not true.

neither am i wrong. so why should i apologise?

she disowned me earlier on.

so fine, go on.

i dont need a mother like you.

like how, you don't need a daughter like me.

me no talking to idiotic mother like you anymore >.<

CRAPPYlicious x))