i'm feeling bad. i can't control my tears. everytime i talk to da zhu, i'll start crying. i dont know why. da zhu treats me really well. talking to adelyn. i bet she's feeling down too. firstly, you may want to know who da zhu is. a very nice guy. we're not together yet but. ya. he treats me so well. i feel bad. i'm not treating him well enough. we went out yesterday. with a whole group of friends. that guy. cheeky.. took the chance. said he was having gastrics. so i pulled him toward the entrance to get some food. then.. pull halfway he suddenly hold onto my hand. dont want let go. so.. thats how we held hands i guess. then we went for movie. watched boogie man. held onto his hand throughout the show. was afraid. you see. there was one part. nikki wanted to scare him. but hit the wrong person. so i freaked out. and he held onto me. lent me his shoulder and gave me a hug. really glad he was there. cos i cant imagine what would happen without him. he bought me a toy monkey too. a very cute one. i missed him badly. i dont know why. been crying. and he;s always the one to console me. i guess. da zhu, i miss you

You're voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
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