Friday, June 10, 2005
10:35 PM
okay, before you guys come pointing fingers at me, which i know you WON'T. cause, you guys love me as much as i love you. right?
sheesh, sorry. bhb x))
dad did talk to me about letting mom gain trust, so she'd let me out and stuffs.
but hello?
don't we all know the outcome like duh!
heasn't he been trying to gain trust?
he has,let me tell you that.
but has he managed to? over the years, he hasnt either.
thats why, i dont bother trying.
it'll be the same.
maybe you'd suggest to talk to her.
BUT. whenever i try telling her anything.
she'd turn the tables around and start pin-pointing me.
how am i even suppose to tell her our thoughts?
then, she says i keep things from her.
she says i don't tell her what's happening in school.
like, how can i tell you/her things?
there's this major age-gap thingy. thought she isn't that old.
but, she wont understand us/me.
take ankle socks for example.
and, i did not exactly wear ankle socks okay?
its ONLY socks.
at least, teachers didnt complain to her bout my behaviour or what.
have i not been trying to get out of trouble?
have i not been trying to hand in homework?
you tell me. no wait, i tell you.
i have alright. as a matter of fact. i DID pass up my homework.
i DID try getting out of trouble.
but, what do i get? nothing.
she believes whatever the teachers say.
for heaven's sakE!
nono. let me change that.
for HELL'S sake!
correction. i WAS your daughter.
can't you just listen? you didnt even bother listening to me!
i know PTM's over. qutie some time ago actually.
but, i really. can't help but flare at the thought of it.
do you even know quek THAT well.
first time you see him, you trust him so much.
what the hell's wrong with you?!
i've had enough of you and your nonsense.
i KNOW you're waiting for me to say sorry.
but, i'm not gonna say it.
try forcing it out of my mouth, if you're that desperate to hear.
cause, mom,
you suck, big time.
i hate you
you hate me
we are hateful family
with a great big knife and mommy on the floor
won't you say you hate me too?
lame, i know.
evil. its okay.
cause its so true.
cross that out.
mommy i HATE you
asshole; you're busted
You're voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
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